I’m a lover of all things artsy, but I’m also a lover of all things geeky with a hint of delicate chic. I’m not one of those females that compromises my femininity in order to enjoy videogames and geek culture. I still love sassing it up and looking glamorous, but the lingo that comes out of my mouth is often a shock to most folks. It’s not that I go around talking random “manly” topics, but my conversation is just uber down to earth, geeky, random, and imaginative.
Now I will admit that when I was in middle school and high school I tried to suppress my personality in order to fit in with the rest of the “normal” girls that all the guys wanted, but no matter how hard I tried I just couldn’t hide my exuberant characteristics. I still always felt like an outcast and a lot of the so called “normal” and “popular” girls always found a way to tease me. You’d think that me being like basically 6ft tall and thick would put some fear in their eyes, but they were just idiots. There were so many girls in middle school and high school I just wanted to smash their skulls in, but I just tried to ignore the robotic drones and focused on discovering the art of being geeky chic, which in my opinion is pure awesomesauce at it’s finest quality.
It’s not like I walk around wearing “weird” clothes, but my personality is just this compilation of confident art and abstract enthusiasm. I don’t live my life like an obsolete apology waiting to be accepted, yet I opt for living a life filled with the elbow room to explore the creative gears churning inside my noggin. Oh yeah, I should also mention that my declaration of being geeky chic and high on awesomesauce, is a declaration that wouldn’t be complete unless I told you that I’m extremely blunt. I’m not a sarcastic prick or a bitchy asshole, but I don’t hold back my thoughts. A lot of guys I dated used to complain that I never really opened up and seemed vulnerable, so I decided “You know what, they have a valid point. So let me start speaking my mind and not hiding my artistic-geek-chic desires.” Instead of showing off a few aspects of my personality in order not to seem “weird” or too avant-garde, I often found myself still being me but not letting the cat out of the bag.
The art of being a female geek and understanding how to cultivate an aura that is totally awesomesauce is one that I’ve finally gotten down to a science. I’m all about letting the cat out of the bag, and I don’t mean that term in the usual negative connotation of unleashing a secret. For me, the term means to just be upfront and honest with the type of woman I am. I’m glad that I’ve figured it out now at such a young age, rather than spending the next 10 to 15 years of my life still trying to find my personality. I know me. I know the pieces that put me together. I know my humor. I know my attitude. I know what works, and I also know what doesn’t work for me. Trying to be this glamorous chick who’s always on point and has this seemingly “flawless” vibe is something that doesn’t work for me.
I’m at the point now where you honestly either get me or you don’t. In the subculture of being a proclaimed geek and artist, there is no concealing of innate character; which is what makes awesomesauce so epic and awesome. A person who has become one with their true identity and isn’t ashamed to share it with the world is someone that bathes in awesomesauce. It’s like you just don’t care if people accept you or not, because at the end of the day you’re still going to have that zone of immeasurable creativity that feeds your soul. Craving the attention of someone’s else affirmation is a tasteless task that I’d rather not embark on.
The art of being who I am is entirely an abstract aura of ingenuity, liberation, geeky chic, and a tantalizing body wash called AwesomeSauce. The basic ingredients are: no explanations, no apologizing, a dosage of fearlessness, vibrant color spectrum, a list of “what if”s in case zombies ever attacked, three favorite superpowers, a worldly musical ear, and a stable addiction to videogames. You can take or add from these ingredients, but at the end of the day it’s still going to be a creative fusion of awesomesauce.
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