You ever have those moments in life, where you step outside of yourself and say “What the hell was I thinking?” Well last night was one of the moments for me. Of course it’s impossible to step outside of yourself(or is it), but I did have one of those moments where I felt as though my soul jumped out of my body and looked it me, then shook it’s head and walked off. Blame it on my vivid imagination, but seriously, it was one of those moments where I needed to be slapped.
I had the grandiose idea to try my hand at a 30 day free-trial of Adobe Creative Suite. I figured it would be a piece of cake, so I proceeded to download it. In my mind, I thought it would be pretty simple to work. I had taken some graphic design lessons before, and taken into account my natural artistic ability, I assumed I could do a few tutorials and be on my way to eventually being a pro. Well, I was wrong…oh so wrong!
I found some basic tutorials for beginners and couldn’t get anything to turn out the way it was supposed to. I spent about two hours trying to do one simple task. No matter how hard I tried, I just couldn’t get it together. I got so upset, I just got up and walked away. A lot of things come pretty easy for me in life, such as painting, drawing, acting, academics, writing, and even flirting and attracting me; but digital art is the one thing I can honestly say I don’t have a knack for.
I know that I’m good at a lot of things, but I’m also able to admit that there are things I’m horrible at. So, I’m willing to admit that I suck at using Adobe Creative Suite. I’ve tried before in the past to use it and I just couldn’t get it together. But, I also think it’s due to the fact that I just don’t have a desire internally to become really good at using it. I may be tech savvy in a lot of other areas such as WordPress and even creating simple flyers using MS Word, but being a digital artist is not my area of expertise.
Everyone has their different strengths and weaknesses, which is what makes our society such a beautiful place. One person may be amazing at graphic design, whereas another person might be a great fine artist. Instead of stressing over not being naturally talented at digital design, I decided to just admit defeat and pat myself on the back for my other natural talent. I’m a traditional artist. I’d rather grab the paint, the pencils, the canvas, and let my hand guide the creative direction. I don’t like when I’m not in control on artistic level, which is why using Adobe freaks me out! I literally felt like the world was going to fall apart, but luckily my mom gave me some great advice to calm me down.
It’s okay to admit that I’m not good at graphic design, but I make up for it with my writing and my artwork. Instead of beating myself up over my failed attempt at using Adobe Photoshop, I grabbed my pencils and begin drawing. If I’m not writing, then I’m probably in my room drawing or painting. I have to go to my strength in life. That saves a lot of time and avoids the unnecessary hassle. Of course there are things that people aren’t good at and they should conquer them if they want to, but being a digital artist isn’t my passion. I’d rather be traditional in my approach and keep doing art as a hobby on the side. It keeps me sane, the same way writing on a daily basis keeps me sane.
Yesterday’s confusion and frustration truly reminded me that I’m a writer and a traditional artist. I have a lot of things I’m good at, and a lot of things I’m not good at. But the things I’m good at should be the things I focus on. So there is no point in stressing out over Adobe Photoshop. Instead, I’m going to keep being the best writer I can be for myself and a great artist in my spare time. Digital art is not for me and that’s okay. I love getting all messy and covered with paint and pencil shavings, it’s the messiness that makes creating so much fun!
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